Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Change

Things are changing, so.... I am moving to a new blog, go check it out!  Piper

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

JUNO -

Anyone Else But You - Michael Cera and Ellen Page

Just got this CD yesterday and I am in love with it

Monday, March 10, 2008

Juno

Just got the new Juno sound track and I love it!

"If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea."

Taking advice from all sides

My life is moving.  I am feeling loved and wanted for the first time in a really long time.  I am smiling, laughing and being silly like the old me. My friends are constantly commenting on how much my personality has come out since... well someone isn't hanging over my head and making fun of me. I realize all the people around me are loving me for who I am, for all my little quirks I have and all my weird ways. I realize there is nothing wrong with having quirks, it makes me different and makes me who I am. I am starting to fall in love with the woman I am and the person I am becoming.

I took a break from the internet this weekend, since my power and internet went out on Friday night I thought it was a sign from God I shouldn't be on the internet for awhile.  So my friend and I made a pack that we wouldn't check our e-mail or facebook all weekend.  I got to publish my post since it didn't go through on Friday, but that was it.  I thought I was going to go crazy not checking my e-mail, but I now realize I don't need the internet like I have been using it.  It will just cause trouble for me and lead me places that I didn't want to be in the first place.  

This weekend was busy, again Friday didn't go as planed.  I was suppose to go on this art walk that St. Augustine art galleries hold every first Friday of the month.  You go walk around to all the art galleries downtown and drink free wine!  What is better than free wine and art?  
Saturday I had to drive back to Orlando to grab the rest of my stuff from my old apt.  That was not fun :(  Sunday I got to hang out, I cooked an awesome meal of Orange fish (orange roufy), and it was really good!  For people that know me this is really great, I don't cook.  I like to cook when I know something is going to come out good, but I don't like to take the chance of ruining it.  I took that chance last night and it turned out really great, I will probably cook this dish again! 

Friday, March 07, 2008

Love and Hate Friday

So I am copying love is blonde on her love - hate Friday.  I am having one of those days that starts off really great, the middle gets really rocky and the end is amazing.  So here we go:

love: When I do my hair all nice and pretty

hate: When I do my hair all pretty and it decides to storm outside

love: When my boy sends me really sweet text messages

hate: Going to sleep alone

love: Being back to the size I was in high school

hate: People who can shell it out, but can't take it

love: Karma, it's a bitch!

So as you can see I had a really up and down day, tomorrow I get to see my bestess Brit, and I am so excited!  

Ok side note, my power went out so:

hate: when the power goes out and you can't post on your blog for 24 hours

love: Being loved

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Today was my relaxation day!  I went over to my moms house and we walked the dogs on the beach for about an hour.  There was an amazing breeze and I even got some sun! My small dog Sasha couldn't handle the walk and I ended up having to carry her back home, she is such a baby, uh.





 
 After that we went and had lunch at the Oasis, it was really fun to watch all the bikers there and some of them had some really awesome bikes! It is bike week in Daytona, FL and St. Augustine gets most of the bikers before the weekend starts.  I never liked it that much because I always get so nervous when I am driving around bikers, I am afraid I am not going to see them or something.  But now I love looking at all the different bikes and wish I had one!
Then tonight I went to a spinning and pilaties class.  I was really disapointed with the spinning class.  I have been to my share of spinning classes and every time I go I always want to walk out because I am so exhausted and don't think I can go on any more, this is what I love about it!  When the class is over I feel like I have acomplished so much.  
This class was not like that, we had one section where the instructor pushed us, but that was about it.  For the next class we did pilaties, I have never done pilaties and wasn't really sure what it was. I still don't really know what it is, but according to the instructor I am a natural!  There was a lot of slow breathing and crunches and leg lifts.  I liked the second class better, maybe it is because I was getting complimented on my form, or because we got to lay down most of the time!  I am now watching Lost and loving it as always!  Man you never know what is going to happen next...


Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Kick Boxing

Tonight I went to a kickboxing class with my sister in law. This was my first kickboxing class and before I went into the class I thought hey I am in shape and young, this will be easy.  It started off easy enough with some stretches and a couple of kicks to the bag, but then when she had us do double time, that is when the burning in my legs started. When we moved onto the left leg I thought it was going to give out! Earlier in the day I had ran 2 miles and then worked my abs and arms out, so I was pretty tired.  Towards the end of the class I was a sweating machine.  It really felt good to work out again, but now I can't sleep :(

The Sword

So I know I have been vague about what is going on in my life and I think the truth is, it all hurts too much. 
 I know I told you I just moved to St. Augustine, which is the town I grew up in.  I am now starting my life over. 
Here is a short story of it all:   See I was in this relationship for 7 years and I got married at the young age of 21. I was married for a year and a half to what I thought was the man of my dreams.  I thought wrong, the man of my dreams turned out to be a lying, cheating, hurtful person.  Now the sword he put into my heart just keeps getting deeper and I am trying day by day to remove it.
 
A couple of months ago I started a new blog just documenting my feelings and what I have been going through. Some of it is kinda dark and that is why I didn't post those feelings on here, but if you would like to read it just let me know and I will send you the address. 

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Oh the dreaded week...

This weekend I decided to venture out of town to go visit a friend. It was such a nice relaxing break from all of the drama going on in my life. I went in to the weekend not wanting to not have a plan for anything, and it turned out really nicely. I got to see a new town, drink wine, and lay out with one of my best friends. Monday just came way too fast and I now find myself back to the hurting, tears, and arguing. Why can't it always be the weekend?

On a side note I got my camera back and posted some new photos on flickr, go check them out!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

I haven't blogged in forever.  My life has been crazy and I have not had time to write down what is going on in my life.  
Friday was my last day of work!  I have hated my job for over a year and I am finally done with it! I was so excited to sleep in, but now that I can my body wants to wake me up at 7 everyday.  I think it is because I have had so much on my mind. 
 Yesterday I moved to St. Augustine, but moving was the death of me.  I started packing on Friday and wasn't done until Monday.   It was probably one of the hardest things I have had to do, it took me so long because I couldn't see through all the tears.  My mom showed up with her boyfriend on Monday late afternoon, we get everything packed up and start to drive only to find out the bearing on the trailer was broken.  I don't know anything about cars, but I know that it took about 6 hours to fix that thing.  I ended up leaving Orlando around 2:20 and got to St. Augustine at 3:30 in the morning.  Today I just unpacked everything and made my new place feel as homey as possible.  I think I want to cut off my knee's and calf's because they hurt so bad, moving out of a two story and into a two story is the worst.  
So yeah now I am in St. Augustine and I am hoping for sun tomorrow so I can start working on my tan!

  

"And she finally stopped playing their song, when she realized she was dancing alone"

Monday, February 18, 2008

Dance like no one is watching!

While growing up I was fortunate enough to try many activities.  My mom wanted me to be active and I guess find my talent.  I did gymnastics for 4 years, piano for a little while, played clarenet for 3 years, was involved in winter guard for 4 years, and danced off and on my entire life.  Out of all these activities I am always going back to dancing.  Dancing makes me feel alive and free.  I have done all types of dancing such as ballet, tap, modern, african, jazz, and I took a couple of ballroom classes.  Ahh how I miss it all so much.
This weekend I went out with a couple of friends, we chilled at the bar and then decided to dance a little.  As I looked around at the dance floor I saw all the different types of dancers.  There are those ones that are really speratic with their movement and it seems like they have a tottaly different song playing in their head then what the DJ had just put on,  then there are the ones that are to shy they hardly move or are leaning against the wall just watching people.  There are the crazy dancers, the sexual ones that just air hump everything, and then there are the super drunk dancers that are just falling over ever 2 sec.!  I love to watch people dance because most of the time you can really see their personality come out and you see people just having fun and enjoying themselves!  I know I just let go, enjoy the music and smile!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Day of the Dead


Dear Valentines day, 

I hate you. You suck

Love,
Lauren

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Zebu

So I know this is a random post, but I was recently introduced to this really cute animal.  It is called a Zebu.  Pretty much this is a humped cow, but it is so cute!  Take a look at this baby I got to get up close and personal with!



Monday, February 11, 2008

Dog Love




I went to St. Augustine this weekend and got to bring Dakota with me.  I took her out on the beach sunday morning and I can't even explain the joy it brought to her, here are some pictures and you can just see the happiness on her face!
 

Friday, January 25, 2008

Confessions (part 1)

I always want to be dancing. When no one is home I jump and twirl around my house with such joy! Sometimes I am really good and sometimes I just do it to get all the frustration out!

I hate to cook, but if I am re-creating a dish I love it and get really prideful that I actually made something edible!

I want to grow my nails out so bad, but something stressful comes along and poof they are gone.

Sometimes I wish I could just pack up my car and drive somewhere. I wish I knew people in every state and I would just go and bum a night with them.

I am very scared of the dark and still see things and get scared when all the lights are off.

I am a very shy person, but I have been trying to overcome it my whole life and have just learned to step up when I need too.

Serving up fresh lemonade!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Such sad news

So tonight I sign into my mail and find out Heath Ledger died.  He was only 28 years old, his maid found him dead in his bed.  The police are thinking he overdosed on sleep medication, but don't know if he purposely overdosed or if it was an accident.  I am so sad, I love him as an actor, he was the lead role in "A knights tale" and "The Patriot".  So tonight we will mourn the death of beautiful Heath.  We will see him again in the summer of 2008 when "The dark knight" comes out, a sequel to "Batman begins", he stars as the joker.  Heath we love you and will miss you.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Kate Nash -Foundations

Foundation

So my world is being turned upside down and side ways right now. I have been trying to find some new music and this is what I came up with. If you wanna share any new artists you have found let me know and I will listen.

Here is Kate Nash. Enjoy!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Where do I go?

 Nights feel more normal, whatever normal is these days, but when the morning comes it all falls apart.  It slowly breaks and by noon it is shattered in the pit of my stomach.  If I sleep until the sun goes down I will be ok, crawl back to the cave and hide until it all goes away.